Hi friend! I first off want to say sorry for missing my usual Tuesday letter. I live in the US, and after Monday’s Nashville school shooting, I couldn’t write words other than anger and heartbreak for the victims and everyone involved. And mourning a country that I am struggling to even want to be in these days.
We have had 129 mass shootings THIS YEAR. It’s only March. But this one felt different for me because it hit so close to home.
My sister moved to Denver a few weeks ago, from Nashville. Her home was 5 minutes from this school. We drove past it every time we visited her.
Last year, Matt and I spent a considerable amount of time seriously considering moving to Nashville. It felt like a place we would enjoy raising Maverick in. When my sister got a new job and decided to move, our plans just kind of dissipated.
We’re not religious, so Maverick wouldn’t have gone to that school. But, we would have probably lived in that area. We would have had friends there. I do have friends that still live in Nashville and know people who have kids at that school. My heart is shattered for those parents, for the surviving children who had to go through that trauma, for the teachers and staff.
It’s just unfathomable to me that I have to be scared of sending my child to school one day. If you read this post of mine, then you’ll know I’ve had my heart in two countries the past few years, but now more than ever it feels like a decision has been made on which one we want our child raised in.
With all that being said, it’s been a heavy few days for us here. But, I still wanted to share some of the simple things that have been a light in my life this week. I think we can hold darkness and light at the same time, and there’s humanity in that. So without further ado…
I’ve started a program I’ve been wanting to take for years now, it’s called Manifestation Babe Academy. It’s a 20-week course all on manifesting, and it’s been so much fun to dive into the science behind manifestation and getting super clear on what I want to bring into my life. Kathrin, Manifestation Babe herself, gives so many valuable free resources on manifesting, so I definitely recommend following her on Instagram if you’re interested in this topic or listening to her podcast.
Maverick has been having a really hard time lately with our daily walks. She’s figured out where the beach is, and any time we go in that direction and then turn she starts to cry. She used to love to walk in the stroller and see everything, so it made me sad that she has been so upset. I decided to walk into a different neighborhood this week and thankfully she has no idea which way the beach is, so it’s been such an enjoyable walk again for us. I just love getting outside with her and spending time strolling. I know she’ll be walking alongside me soon enough, too!
I’ve been following Annie on TikTok for a while now, and love her content. She shared on her Instagram stories yesterday that she’s been doing Beth Bartram’s Busy Mums Club workouts and so I instantly went and bought them myself. The workouts are only 25 minutes long and don’t require anything other than bodyweight. They’re currently 40% off and it’s just a one-time payment. I’m super excited to start next week!
When I feel anxious, one of my favorite things to do to zone out for a bit is look at houses on Zillow (or RightMove if you’re in the UK). Please tell me I’m not the only one haha. I’ve just been scrolling through houses in random places all week and it’s been so fun. I love seeing what you can get for what price in different areas, and finding hidden gems along the way.
Last Thursday Matt and I celebrated 5 years since getting engaged. Our whole story is such a wild & magical one to share (I’ve been writing out how we met but it’s taking me forever so maybe you’ll see it one day). It was my dream since I was a kid to get engaged in front of the Eiffel Tower in Paris. I had mentioned it to Matt but he did such a good job of throwing me off the scent that I never imagined we would be getting engaged on this particular trip to Paris. To top it off, he proposed with the exact ring I had wanted and it had diamonds from my mom and Grandmother throughout. He also somehow convinced me to book a photoshoot for us and then secretly messaged the photographer on my phone to set up the proposal photos. It was soo special, and I can’t believe 5 years have already passed.
And there you have it! I’d love to know what magically mundane thing you’ve experienced this week that has brought you joy.
I'm glad you're still finding light in the dark times - I totally agree that we can hold both these things at once, I think that's the way we survive through the hard bits, really.❤️ I love a good scroll through the houses for sale too! I spend way too much time on Pinterest on days like that too... So many pretty things. Can't get enough. 😍
I saw this on the news and it broke my heart. I can’t begin to imagine how scary it is to live in a country where you fear for your children at school 😔. Sending lots of love to you.
I’m so pleased that you managed to find some pieces of joy in an otherwise difficult time 🤍